Cancer Lesson #68: Always Looking Forward
Ten months after being diagnosed, I took my first exercise class after surgery and chemo. <cue the applause>
I wasn’t sure how I’d do. I’ve always been blessed with a nature flexibility, but cut muscles and scar tissue take their toll. My body didn’t move like before. (It still doesn’t.)
There were certain poses I knew I wasn’t ready for. But I also knew I’d never be ready for them if I didn’t try.
So if my plank looked more like downward facing dog, it didn’t matter. It was heaven to discover I could move in some of the ways I had before.
The best was the warrior pose – “Always looking forward” as my teacher describes it.
Her words felt like a benediction because once you’ve had a serious illness, your body never returns to how it was.
We can only move toward the future, eyes forward, like the warrior.
Cancer was an unplanned detour that changed me forever, and yet I’m still the same person I was, with many of the same goals.
I move forward to accomplish those I can while I am still here. Paying attention to my spiritual and bodily needs is part of that, as it should be for everyone, cancer survivor or not.
And so, gentle readers, I close this post as in all yoga classes.
Namaste. (The light within me salutes the light within you.)