The WordPress.com stats helper monkeys prepared a 2014 annual report for this blog, and I’m sharing because I’m so pleased to have reached so many. Thanks for making 2014 a great year.
Here’s an excerpt:
A San Francisco cable car holds 60 people. This blog was viewed about 2,200 times in 2014. If it were a cable car, it would take about 37 trips to carry that many people.
Cancer Lesson #61: Three negatives don’t make a positive.
A few weeks after I finished treatment, one of my favorite cousins was diagnosed with breast cancer, beginning her own journey down the same same scary path I had so recently traveled. But her path took a different turn when she learned her cancer is triple negative.
You see, breast cancer has many variations. Pathology may show a tumor responds (is receptive) to estrogen (ER), progesterone (PR), human epidermal growth factor receptor 2 (HER2), or any combination of the three.
If cancer is ER or PR positive, hormone inhibitors are used to help prevent recurrence. A cancer that is HER2 positive tends to be more aggressive, and is treated differently. (WebMD has a good explanation of this (http://tinyurl.com/34xafpm).
But my cousin’s cancer is triple negative, meaning it isn’t ER, PR or HER2 positive, hence the name, “Triple Negative Breast Cancer” (TNBC).
Because TNBC isn’t receptive to hormones, hormone inhibitors aren’t a treatment option, so she was treated with a more aggressive chemo regimen than mine, as well as radiation.
I share these facts because people sometimes assume all breast cancer is treated similarly, varying only by stage and/or size of the tumor(s). I hope you understand now this isn’t the case.
And with HER2, it seems not only can a negative be a negative, a positive can be a negative too.
For more information about TNBC, please visit http://www.tnbcfoundation.org/index.html.
Note: I was HER2 negative and slightly ER and PR positive so I take Anastrozole/Arimidex (a hormone inhibitor), which is effective for post-menopausal women. Tamoxifen is used for women who are pre-menopausal. Here’s a good explanation of the differences from the Dr. Susan Love Research Foundation website: http://tinyurl.com/m4p7hgb.
Cancer Lesson #60: The odds might be in your favor, but just barely.
Not long ago, I listened to a book about cancer called The Emperor of All Maladies by Siddarth Mukherjee.
I ordered it from the library when I was first diagnosed, took one look, and sent it back. At that point, I was feeling too scattered to even consider reading a 571-page tome about the disease.
Eventually, however, I ordered it again, this time on a Playaway audiobook and listened to it on my way to and from work. It’s more than twenty hours long, so it took a while. It was fascinating stuff – a Pulitzer winner, in fact – so I didn’t mind.
What I do mind, and find to be absolutely incredible, is one of the statistics the author quotes within the first few pages. I’ve referred before to the fact that one in eight women will get breast cancer in her lifetime – a fact I couldn’t believe when I first heard it – but Mukherjee’s statistic is worse, much worse.
One in two men and one in three women will get cancer in their lifetime.
There’s really nothing more to say.
Cancer Lesson #59: Don’t take anything for granted.
If you’re a cancer patient, or even an adult, you probably think you understand lesson #59.
I thought I did too, but two experiences near the end of my treatment proved how wrong I was.
You see, throughout my cancer year, from surgery to chemo, I followed my body’s lead on what I could and couldn’t do. If I felt up to something and wanted to do it, I did. If I felt crummy, I stayed home and read or watched movies.
I assumed – that is, took for granted – that I was the best judge of what I was physically capable of, and for the most part, that approach worked.
On two occasions, things turned out differently.
The first started as a normal week, with chemo on Monday and my Neulasta shot on Tuesday. As usual, I felt pretty rough on Tuesday and Wednesday, but by Thursday, I was doing pretty well.
That afternoon, a couple of friends came by, and we had what The Engineer (my husband) would call a good old natter. Everything seemed fine.
A few hours later, the situation changed drastically. Some kind of reaction kicked in, and I was feverish and shivering.
The Engineer helped me upstairs and took my temperature as I tried to remember how high it was allowed to go before we had to call the doctor. It was 101.3, which I convinced myself was below the magic number. (Later I discovered it’s not supposed to go higher than 101).
I’m not stupid. Had I been still been feverish the next morning, I would have called. But after taking a couple of acetaminophen and allowing an hour or so for them to kick in, I finally stopped shuddering.
Friday morning, I woke feeling much better, albeit a little shaky – and shaken – from the experience.
Fast forward a few weeks to my last chemo treatment (yay!) and final Neulasta shot (double yay!)
My muscles and bones ached and pained me for a few days, but by Friday, I was convinced the previous treatment reaction was a fluke.
No fever. No chills. No temperature.
I felt almost normal in an “out-of-breath-by-the-top-of-the-stairs-feeling-really-enervated” kind of way. Chemo was over, and I wasn’t sick or exhausted. Things were looking good, right?
Wrong, and wrong in a BIG way, because that night The Engineer and I went out to dinner and ended up in an ambulance on the way to the hospital.
I’d suggested dining out, even gone so far as to order a glass of wine to celebrate the end of chemo.
After a couple of sips, I started feeling weird. You know, that strange “out there” feeling that tells you something’s not quite right and maybe you might just puke?
“You may have to drink this.” I pushed the glass across the table. “I feel kind of funny.”
“You okay?” asked my loving husband.
“I think so.” I began gulping water in the hope that I was just dehydrated.
Eventually the waitress brought our food. I stared down at my fish and chips, thinking I can’t eat this.
My husband asked again if I was okay.
“No.”
The next thing I remember was waking to the sound of voices saying the ambulance was on its way and the mortifying knowledge I had to go to the bathroom immediately or things would soon get even worse.
The Engineer escorted me to the restroom in a sick version of the walk of shame. I could feel the other diners’ eyes on us, but felt too bad to care (much). Ambulances don’t have toilets, and that’s all I’m going to say on that subject.
Someone (probably the owner – what restaurateur wants an emergency vehicle parked at their front door?) was smart enough to direct the squad to the back. We exited to climb through its open doors.
All I wanted was to go home and crawl in bed. But my husband told me I’d been out for FIVE FREAKING MINUTES(!!). Going to the hospital seemed like a good idea.
Wrong again.
There, they decided to check my blood count – a reasonable suggestion in the situation – and perhaps give me some fluids – also a logical plan.
A uniformed woman came to take me for my chest x-ray.
I was suffering from chemo side effects. Why did I need an x-ray? And more to the point, why should we – okay, why should our insurance pay for one?
They said it was “standard procedure” when someone suffers a syncope episode (http://tinyurl.com/cwegp7) (Quick vocabulary lesson: Syncope is a fancy term for fainting.)
The nurse said I could refuse.
I refused.
Next, they tried to access my port to draw blood. Despite the nurse’s dramatic efforts to make it less painful, it hurt like hell. And he couldn’t get any blood.
They tried a vein.
No joy.
The guy was ready to have another go at the port, but I wasn’t going through that again.
I refused.
Eventually, they decided to give me fluids, so the nurse set up the IV adjusting the controls to push liquid through my veins so I wouldn’t be there all night – another good idea.
Though it burned a little, I figured that was because it was running fast.
The nurse asked if it hurt, which was fortunate because I hadn’t thought to complain.
“Sort of,” I admitted.
When we looked at my arm, it was puffing up from the fluid, which was being pushed into my tissue and not my veins.
At least, I assume that was what was happening since he immediately disconnected the needle.
About then, The Engineer started looking green, and I worried he was going to lose his lunch.
Turns out he hadn’t had any, and witnessing all the poking and prodding was making him ill.
I called it quits.
“I’m going home. I’ll drink lots of fluids, but we’re leaving.”
Funny, no one seemed surprised.
Clutching the extra-large hospital-provided scrubs in one hand, I shuffled toward the door, encountering the woman who had come to take my CAT scan.
I refused that too.
I’ve since visited that restaurant only once, under duress, to celebrate my brother’s birthday.
I hid under a big hat and sunglasses.
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